sworn to secrecy

so i think i have a problem space defined. just chatted with prof c for a bit and the word of the day is secret. no, really. it's 'secret.' an interesting twist about clothing is that not all of it is strictly worn as a sociological measure -- sometimes we wear clothing that we know for sure will not be seen by anyone at anytime, but still appeals to us for a particular reason or another. some examples of secrets + clothing:

• wearing a subversive or possibly controversial message or pattern underneath the public layer, to add a shield or psychologically protective layer. example: prof c wearing an 'anderson for president' shirt underneath his suit and tie when meeting the homeland security committee. it would never be exposed, though it perhaps balanced out his mental state or helped him through the event.
• wearing underwear that's particularly silly, sensual, or comfortable. there's instances of women buying luxurious or patterned or differently cut underwear. there's also wearing of 'granny underwear' on days when you don't feel like anyone will notice, or this guy here: I'm wearing black briefs. I never wear black briefs except when I know that nobody's going to see me in them. They are also warmer (at least in my view) than, say, boxers on a day like this, under jeans. So, they're perfectly sturdy designer brand boxer briefs and they look like hell, but I've got no date today, so they're safe to wear in private. Boxer briefs are much hotter.
• cellphone or pager silent/vibration mode. only the wearer has a secret notification for just them that's invisible to others. the existence of a communication issecret.

thinking of the idea of secrecy. there's a sheer rush when there's something only you (or a precious other few) know about, or even something like a joke on the world around you who has no idea. there are several elements of secrets: the acquiring of it, the harboring of it, and the possible leakage of it. it's that risky element (no matter how large or how small) that makes the experience all the more valuable or personal. if you wear a sexy underthing, even if you have no plans to show them to really anybody, it's that miniscule chance that someone may see them that gives a thrill at the back of the mind. maybe you'd be embarassed beyond belief if anyone really did see yourself in them, but it may still be an amusing fantasy to entertain.

small risk factor:
wearing dirty socks or underwear. someone asking you about an already publicly displayed thing (maybe a piece of jewelry or a pattern motif) that has an secret story.

high risk factor:
wearing embarassing or inappropriate kinds of clothing. causing others to think of you differently.

unthinkable risk factor:
wearing something that is life of death. a highly controversial statement. something that reveals something extremely secret part of identity (i.e. being exposed with a seriously secret crossdressing fetish), exposing yourself as a traitor, as a cheater (illicit relationship), something to crumble your foundation of life.